For the first hour, everything was normal.
I watched half of a cooking show on the little screen in the seat in front of me. Something about a man trying to make a wedding cake in a kitchen that kept catching on fire. I ate the cheese crackers Daniel had bought at the airport. I drank my water, like Dr. Abrams said.
I texted Rachel. How’s he doing?
A few minutes later, she sent back a picture.
It was Dad in his hospital bed. He was holding up a paper coffee cup with both hands, looking straight into the camera with the most disgusted face I’ve ever seen. Like someone had handed him a cup of mud.
Underneath, Rachel had typed:
HE’S ALREADY COMPLAINING ABOUT THE PORTIONS.
I laughed out loud. Teresa looked over and smiled.
Then a sharp pain went across my lower back.
It wasn’t like the ache from before. It was different. It started in the middle of my spine and wrapped around both sides, like somebody had put a belt around me and was pulling it tight.
I sucked in my breath.
I shifted sideways in the seat. I put my hand on my lower back and pressed.
After a few seconds, it let go.
I sat there and waited. Nothing happened. I let out my breath.
Hospital chairs, I told myself. Three nights in hospital chairs. Two hours on a plane.
A few minutes later, it happened again.
“Are you okay?” Daniel asked.
He’d been reading something on his tablet. Now he was looking at me.
“Probably,” I said. “She’s been kicking all morning. I think she’s sitting on a nerve or something.”
He looked at me a little longer. Then he went back to his tablet.
But the next pain made me grab the armrest so hard my knuckles went white.
I looked at the clock on my phone.
I waited.
Seven minutes later, it came again.
Then five minutes after that.
I told myself I was counting wrong.
I’d read all the books. I’d taken the childbirth class at the hospital in Chicago, the one on Tuesday nights, where we all sat on yoga balls and practiced breathing and watched a video that made Daniel go pale. I knew what contractions were. I knew what it meant when they started coming closer together.
But knowing it in a classroom on a yoga ball was completely different from feeling it up here. Thirty-five thousand feet up. In seat 23C. With a peppermint in my mouth.
It couldn’t be that. It just couldn’t. I had six more weeks.
Braxton Hicks, I told myself. False labor. Your body practicing. It happens all the time. They talked about it in class.
I got up to go to the bathroom.
Daniel started to get up too.
“I’m just going to the bathroom,” I said. “I’ll be right back.”
The bathroom was at the back of the plane. Six rows. I made it to the door and got inside and locked it.
And then another wave hit, and I bent over the tiny metal sink with both hands on the edges and my forehead almost touching the mirror. I couldn’t breathe. I couldn’t think. I just held on.
When it finally passed, I looked up at myself in the mirror.
My face was gray. There was sweat at my hairline.
I splashed some water on my face. I dried it with a paper towel.
On my way back to my seat, another one came. Halfway down the aisle. I had to stop and hold on to the top of an empty seat, bent over, with my eyes squeezed shut, until it let go.
A man in a window seat looked up from his laptop and stared at me.
When I got back to row twenty-three, Daniel saw my face.
He put his tablet down.
“What’s wrong?”
“I think I need some water,” I said.
“Hannah.”
“I just need some water.”
He didn’t argue. He reached up and pressed the call button.
A flight attendant came down the aisle. She was in her forties, with dark hair pulled into a tight bun and very calm eyes. Her name tag said OLIVIA.
“What can I get you?”
“My wife isn’t feeling well,” Daniel said.
Olivia looked at me. Then she crouched down in the aisle beside my seat so she was at eye level with me.
“Are you feeling faint?” she asked.
“No,” I said. “Just cramping.”
“How far along are you?”
“Thirty-four weeks.”
I watched her face change. It was a small change. Just a little tightening around her eyes. But I saw it.
“Can you tell me how far apart the pains are?” she said.
Before I could answer, another one hit.
I grabbed Daniel’s hand. I bent forward as far as my belly would let me. I heard myself make a sound I didn’t recognize.
And I heard Daniel counting. Quietly. Right next to my ear. One. Two. Three. Four. All the way up to fifty-two, until I could breathe again.
When it was over, Olivia was still crouched there, watching me.
“About five minutes,” Daniel told her. “Maybe less.”
Olivia nodded. She stood up.
“I’m going to ask if there’s a medical professional on board,” she said.
I caught her sleeve.
“Please,” I said. “Please don’t scare everyone. I’m sure it’s nothing. I’m sure it’s just…”
Olivia looked down at me. Her voice was gentle. But it didn’t leave room for arguing.
“My priority is making sure you’re safe,” she said. “And your baby. Everyone else can handle being a little scared.”
Then she walked quickly to the front of the plane.
A minute later, her voice came over the speakers.
“Ladies and gentlemen, if there is a doctor, nurse, or other medical professional on board, please press your call button or identify yourself to a member of the crew.”
All around us, heads turned. People looked up from their screens. Somebody stood up a few rows ahead to see what was going on.
I wanted to disappear into my seat.
Teresa reached across the aisle and put her hand on my arm.
“You’re all right, sweetheart,” she said. “You’re all right.”
A man near the back of the plane pressed his call button.
He came up the aisle a minute later. He was maybe forty, broad-shouldered, with a short beard and a gray hoodie and a backpack slung over one shoulder. He knelt down in the aisle beside me.
“Hi,” he said. “My name’s Ramon. I’m a paramedic. I’m just flying home from a conference. Can I ask you some questions?”
I nodded.
He asked me when the pain started. Whether it was in my back or my front or both. Whether the baby was still moving. Whether I’d had any fluid, any bleeding. Whether I felt any pressure, low down.
I answered every question. My voice was shaking.
When I said yes to the pressure, he went very still for a second.
Then he turned and looked up at Olivia.
“Can you contact the medical team on the ground?” he said. “I need to talk to them.”
Olivia nodded and went to the front.
I grabbed Ramon’s hand.
“Am I in labor?” I whispered.
He looked at me. He didn’t look away.
“I think you are,” he said.
“No,” I said. “No. I still have six weeks.”
“I know.”
“I have six weeks,” I said again. Like saying it twice would make it true. “The nursery isn’t finished. I haven’t even finished painting it. Her clothes aren’t washed. You’re supposed to wash all the little clothes first, in the special detergent. And the car seat is still in the box. We haven’t even taken it out of the box. Daniel was going to watch a video on how to install it this weekend.”
I knew I wasn’t making sense. I couldn’t stop.
Ramon held my eyes.
“None of those things matter right now,” he said quietly. “Not the paint. Not the clothes. Not the car seat. Only you and your baby matter. Okay? That’s it. That’s the whole list.”
I nodded. Tears were running down my face.
Daniel was holding my other hand so tight it hurt.
A few minutes later, the captain came on.
His voice was calm and slow, the way pilots always sound.
“Ladies and gentlemen, this is Captain Hollister. Due to a medical emergency on board, we’ll be diverting to Milwaukee, which is the nearest suitable airport. We expect to begin our descent shortly. Thank you for your patience and cooperation.”
There was a little murmur through the cabin.
Somebody a few rows back sighed. Loudly. On purpose. So people would hear.
Then a man’s voice, behind us.
“We’re almost at our destination. Why can’t we just keep going?”
I looked back over my seat.
It was the man in the navy suit.
He was sitting about four rows behind us, on the other side, in an aisle seat. The woman with the short gray hair was next to him. She had her hand on his arm again.
Olivia had come back down the aisle. She stopped beside his row.
“Sir,” she said. “We have a medical emergency.”
“I understand that,” he said. “I do. But has anyone even asked whether she can wait?”
Daniel turned all the way around in his seat.
“My wife is in labor,” he said.
The man glanced at me. Just for a second. The way you glance at a car that’s parked badly.
“And there are hospitals near the airport we were supposed to land at,” he said. “Good ones. Chicago’s forty-five minutes away. It’s not like we’re over the ocean.”
“The crew has made its decision,” Olivia said. “Please stay seated, sir.”
I wanted to say something. I wanted to turn around and ask him if he thought I could just decidenot to have a baby. If he thought I could hold it in. If he thought this was something I’d planned, to ruin his afternoon.
But another contraction hit, and I couldn’t say anything at all.
Teresa turned around in her seat.
She looked at the man in the navy suit over the top of her glasses. The way a teacher looks at a kid who’s been talking during a test.
“She’s frightened enough,” Teresa said. Her voice was quiet, but it carried. “Whatever appointment you have, it can wait.”
The man opened his mouth.
Olivia raised one hand and pointed, very firmly, at his seat.
He closed his mouth.
He sat back.
The woman next to him looked down at her lap. Her face was red.
After that, everything happened fast.
Olivia and another flight attendant, a young guy named Kevin, cleared out the space in the rear galley, behind the last row of seats. They pulled out the metal carts and moved them. They put down blankets on the floor, the thin blue airline blankets, a whole stack of them.
Ramon and Daniel helped me stand up and walk to the back. It was only six rows. It felt like a mile. I had to stop twice and hold on to people’s seats. One woman reached up and held my hand while a contraction went through me, and then she let go without saying anything.
Kevin pulled a curtain across the galley so the rest of the plane couldn’t see.
Ramon helped me lie down on the blankets. Daniel knelt behind me and held my shoulders up, so I wasn’t flat on my back.
The floor was hard and cold and vibrating with the engines.
Then Teresa appeared at the edge of the curtain.
She’d taken off her purple sweater. The one with the little embroidered birds. She held it out, folded into a square.
“Put this under her head,” she said.
Ramon took it and slid it under my head. It was soft and warm and smelled like peppermint.
“Thank you,” I said.
“Don’t thank me,” Teresa said. “Just do good work.” And she went back to her seat.
Ramon opened a white plastic case that Olivia had brought him. The crew’s emergency medical kit. There was a smaller sealed bag inside it, labeled in red letters: OBSTETRIC.
He tore it open and started laying things out on a clean towel. Gloves. Clamps. Scissors. A little blue bulb syringe. More towels. A tiny knit cap.
That tiny knit cap was what scared me the most. It was so small.
Through the curtain, I could hear Olivia on the cabin telephone, the one on the wall by the galley. She was talking fast and low. I couldn’t hear most of it.
But I heard two words very clearly.
“Priority exit.”
I assumed she meant us. Me and Daniel. Getting off the plane first, when we landed.
I’d find out later that she didn’t.
I gripped Daniel’s hand.
“I don’t want her born here,” I said.
“I know,” he said.
“Not on the floor of a plane. I don’t want her born on the floor of a plane.”
“I know, Hannah. I know.”
“What if she can’t breathe?”
I felt his hands on my shoulders go stiff. I looked up at him. All the color had drained out of his face.
He didn’t have an answer. For the first time since I’d known him, my husband didn’t have a list.
Ramon leaned in close.
“Hannah,” he said. “Look at me. We’re preparing for her. Everything she needs, I’ve got right here. You need to listen to me now. Not the noise. Not the engines. Not the people out there. Just me. Okay?”
I nodded.
The contractions started coming almost on top of each other. There was barely any space between them. Just enough time to take one breath.
In between, I kept trying to remember when the ache had started.
At breakfast, in the hotel? When I was eating that terrible hotel waffle?
In the car, on the way to the airport?
Yesterday, sitting by Dad’s bed?
Had I been in labor for hours without knowing it? Had I been in labor while I was standing in the security line, telling Daniel I wasn’t made of glass?
Beyond the curtain, I heard a man’s voice rise.
I couldn’t make out the words. Just the tone. Angry. Impatient.
Then Olivia’s voice, very firm.
“Sir. You need to remain seated.”
I barely heard her.
Nothing I did seemed to bring the ground any closer. We were still up there. Still flying. I could feel it in the floor. In the hum of the engines under my back.
And then the pain changed.
It wasn’t pain anymore. It was pressure. Enormous, heavy pressure, low down, like my whole body was being pushed in one direction.
I couldn’t stop myself.
I started pushing.
